Yes i'm tired. Tired with everything.I'm not that strong to hold myself, i failed. Major fail alright?Atlast, this tears fall down to my cheeks, how i hope i can rewind everything back soo that no one would saw me in that situation, and again, i failed.I dont know what happen to me lately. I tried my very best to control all this emotions, but i cant.and i did badly today for my Netball training. Yes, it was daaamn bad, i cant even shoot. My footwork and all, i cant concentrate . I didnt even understand a single word coach tell us. I was there, but my mind, i dont know where it goes to. I think, i have to spill everything out here.1]I was too angry with myself that i make others pissed off with me.2]I dont know what happen to me nowadays. My emotions were mixed up.3]I was just too tired with all of this schedule. I was Effing tired.4]My backbone was hurt, and i cant breath easily, my leg . I tried to bare with all the pain, but i cant, it was just too painful.5] I feel like dying .6]My mind was full with thinking, you might not know what i am thinking about , but actually,it was ALOT of thing i have to think about.7] I'm scared. 8] I'm tired of thinking about others problems. and also, i'm tired of smiling.That's it. I dont know how to explain everything in terms of words. Just that, let me cry, let me cry for a single day, soo that i will be normal for tomorrow and the future. I just need one thing, to cry.My problems have nothing to do with all of you, just that, long time i've never cried myself out and i kept controlling it. Soo, today is the day, the day that i spill everything out, and now, i feel a little bit of relief. I'm too tired right now to post everything , but lastly.Thanks everyone for the concern and loves. I'm sorry for acting weirdly nowadays.I Love You All TruckLoads alright ♥
Yours Truly , 사라가 휘 시안을 웡 ♥ @ 5:42 AM